GRATEFUL FOR MY LIFE

I have started dating again and I have to say... I am SO grateful for my life! I know that divorce is such an ugly thing, but I feel that everything that I feel the boys and I went through has been able to stay in the past. I try to date men that are fathers themselves and have been married, for the fact that I think they know a little more about where I am coming from and what my world is. Most of these men are absolutely amazing, but it breaks my heart how much they still have to deal with when it comes to their ex's and their children. For me, and I honestly feel this way, I feel that I have been able to forgive Steve and to truly forget a lot of the things that happened. When I think of him I hold no bad feelings or ill will. In fact I am thankful for him. Some of you may be saying "WHAT?" but it is true. I always say you HAVE to give credit where credit is due. Steve pays his child support, he calls the boys every weekend and if I ever need anything for the boys I know I can count on him to get it. I feel lucky that I don't have to worry. In return I feel like Steve and I are able to get along and that we both understand that we don't need to hold on to the past, but rather look towards the boys futures with them as the main focus. I see these men who no matter how hard they try the ex wives still have so much anger towards them. It hurts my heart that children will have to grow up knowing that their parents have hard feelings against each other. Even though life did not turn out the way I thought. I love my life, I love my boys, I love that the divorce put me closer to the church. I am grateful it put a kick in my step to get me to the temple, I am thankful that it taught me forgiveness and charity. I am thankful that it constantly teaches me not to judge and to always look for the good in others, no matter how small. If I had to go and do it all over again I WOULD! No doubts about it. I hope that when others see me and they knew who I was back then to who I am now they can honestly say I am a different person. I feel that I have grown and been able to become the person I have always wanted to be, but never had the strength before to become. I am so grateful for my wonderful family! My Mom (and her new husband), my brothers and their wonderful, amazing wives, for my sister and her amazing husband, and for my beautiful boys. Also for Skips (my mom's husband) family who I am beginning to know and admire. I am thankful for my amazing girlfriends. and boyfriends, and for my church friends. I love love love living in AZ and being able to be close to all of you! From the bottom of my heart I want to thank everyone for their constant support, love and understanding. I am so grateful for where I am in my life! Loves!