A Little Scary

I am not one to announce EVERYTHING in my life.... well at least not these days, but because this is my blog and in a way my journal I would like to remember this pregnancy and my fears that I faced with it (as well as the good of course)!
On February 7th I went in for my 34 week check up. Nothing too crazy has gone on so far other than my body letting me know this is the last one, but no crazy symptoms to write home about. Well when I went in on the 7Th I got a shock!!! The doctor let me know that I was Enimic and had reached a point where they are really concerned not only for my safety but for the safety of my baby girl too (which my the way we are calling her Zoey now.... long story). She let me know that because of where my count is that she ordered a "stand-by" blood transfusion for when I give birth. Now because we have modern technology I know I should not be too worried, but still it has me worried... especially when right after she told me this she said at the 36 week check up we will do an Anatomy scan and most likely have a "stand-by" transfusion for Zoey too. WOW! As soon as I told Daniel he said he would like to be the one to give the blood so once my appointment happens on this upcoming Monday the doctor and I will talk and see if that is possible. I also have two sister in laws (sweet hearts) that have told me that they will come and give blood as well. Along with my best friend Jessi B! I am so grateful for this kind of love in my life.
I am hoping that this is a worse case scenario and that I will actually be fine and so will Zoey. I am hoping at the 36 week appointment on Monday that the Anatomy scan will show Zoey healthy as can be. I am hoping that all the Iron I am taking will do it's best to raise my iron and put me at least back in the 20's!
I am so anxious for this upcoming appointment. I am so counting on the doctor telling me that Zoey is healthy that I honestly don't know what I am going to do if I hear her say she isn't. I am so grateful for modern science and medicine and for technology that really can tell these things ahead of time and can help fix them.
Something else we will find out on Monday is if they will want to schedule my delivery so they can have everything in place or if they feel I should go until I go into labor on my own. If they do schedule it I am positive it will be at the beginning of my 38 week mark since I went at 38 weeks with my last two babies, but we'll see.
In a weird way I just feel like a failure with this pregnancy, like I did something wrong and now I may have hurt my child. I know my thoughts may be bogus, but it is just how I feel at the moment. I am praying for good news on Monday and I am praying for a good delivery with no transfusion.